A NEW DAY..

Today was a day of healing and rebirth.  Today was my son's birthday.  Menes Osiris Daniels.  He was killed crossing a street in Round Rock Tx.  He was 6 years old. Menes was the type of child that was very inquisitive and smart.  He loved to play outside with his friends and family.  This particular day he wanted to impress his cousins and show them where a special friend lived.  A friend that use to play with him and his older brother Elijah.  The friend wasnt home so Menes and his cousins started to come back home.  The street was usually not busy at all.  The street was crossed many times before. But this particular time the cousins crossed and left Menes on the other side.  Menes tried to catch up by crossing and didnt see a truck that was coming up.  The truck struck Menes and he was knocked unconscious.  He later died in the helicopter on the way to the hospital.  I dont doubt God or Question him about the decisions he makes in my life.  I just praise God for the time I spent with my son.  God knows all and He is Wonderful.  Inspite of what we think or feel.  God Loves Us and that is good enough for me. I love you Menes Osiris Daniels....and mommy will see you when I get to Heaven.

Today Is A New Day

Today is a new day...To begin the rest of your life.  I choose to forgive and never forget.  Forgive the people who have wronged me and never forget where God has brought me.  We have a choice to heal or to hurt.  I choose to heal.  Did you know that your body could be suffering because you are holding some type of resentment for someone?  That blew me away.  Diseases in our body can be prevented just by being happy and joyful instead of sad and miserable.  I choose to be happy and joyful.  That is how it suppose to be..right??  I have a few major tests coming up in April that will be looking at a few things that will determine whether my body is strong enough to take the next stage of treatment.  When I go in there I want to surprise everyone with how strong I am simply because I decided to LET GO and LET GOD!!!

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

I went to Dallas this weekend and had a blessed time in the Lord.  I actually drove for the first time longer than a few miles here and there like I do in Austin.  But towards the end of my trip, I almost allowed an incident to strip my joy for the rest of the day.  A friend reminded me that I must not let the devil in and steal that joy from me.  Satan comes to steal, kill, and destroy us.  God is so good and he blesses us on a constant basis.  It's like sometimes we feel that it suppose to be automatic.  But when something happens contrary to what we planned we focus on it all day if it's bad enough.  I cant allow myself to get in that mode of making minor things major and major things minor.  God is blessing me everyday and that is something to focus on above all else.  God thank you for allowing me to be human but knowing that I am striving to be a better person in you.

Heart Break turns into Heart Felt Praise

Well, I must say, going thru this thing alone can get pretty tough sometimes but I often have to remind myself that I am not alone.  I know God is always with me.  It is just the whole idea about sharing thoughts and emotions with a person you see.  But when you really think about it, God can also be that in your life if you allow him.  God is our everything.  He is our all in all.  He is a father to the fatherless, a mother to the motherless, a brother or a sister.  He can always be your lover.  Just let him in.  So, I chose to let him in to be my Everything....My friend, my lover, my father, my everything!!  Thank you God for being here for me in my time of weakness.  When I am weak..you are strong.

More Great News....

Right now I am on top of the world.  My lil one is here visiting from Dallas for a week at my apartment.  We are spending time together after 3 months of not seeing him.  Boy, this feels good.  I love caring for him.  It gets my mind off other things and back to things that matter.  My middle son came to see me over the weekend. That was fun too!!  He really makes me laugh.  My oldest communicates with me through yahoo messenger.  He is in Iraq.  So, I am blessed beyond measure.  I love 3 loving and caring boys and they love their mother unconditionally and I love them with that same love.  A mother and son bond.....what can I say??  It's unbreakable!!!

A Trip Back Home

I left today to go visit my mom back home in Cameron Tx. What a trip! We left around 11:00am and made it there just in time to almost miss her. My mom is a hard worker. My mom is a cook at a nursing home and she loves her job. My mom would rather work than stay at home any day. She has always been that way. We asked her, what is she going to do when she retires??...She said, relax and kick my feet up. Yea right! We will see how long that lasts. My mom is 60 years of age and still loving and beautiful from the inside out. I love her so much. She is just now deciding to tell her daughter the truth about the birds and the bees....go figure.

A day of doubt...

I allowed myself to start doubting in one area that God has already confirmed to me. God told me that he wants the best for me. I know that is something easily said until you want something and it aint what God wants for you. It is hard to allow total control of your life. To totally trust God in ALL THINGS. We say it but do we mean ALL of it?? Well, I said it.. and found myself still holding on to one little part. Well, you know who won that battle...yep you guessed it... God. Just remember this small prayer because if you really mean it...God will move faster than what you think. Prayer: God I don't want anything that you don't want me to have. Stand back and watch God move after that...

Feeling Good and Looking

Hello People, it is wonderful to feel great and look great. If nobody tells you this, you must tell yourself. You have to believe that you are doing great and the body will follow. I have heard of this theory but now I truly believe it. Your mind is a powerful instrument. On top of belief, you have to know and respect that God controls everything. Whether its good or better. I don't believe that anything is bad because God didn't make anything BAD. The enemy(Satan) wants us to think that God doesn't love us but that is a lie. God loves us. Even when we dig ditches for ourselves, he still gives us a rope for safety. "It all works together for good, for those who love God." Keep this in front of your mind...no matter what.

My First Road Trip

Hello people! Well what can I say. I finally had my first road trip since I've been out of the hospital. You guys know where I wanted to go right?? Yep, Dallas! The goal was to see my youngest son and try to get some info from my exhusband. Also, check out a place where I would love to live. I have been eyeing this place for at least 6 months. Lastly, I wanted to see a really good friend of mine. Now these were the reasons for the trip...did they happen? No, I ended up doing things that weren't on the menu. I didn't get to meet up with the exhusband, didn't get to see my son, didn't get to check the place out where I planned to move, and didn't get to spend enough time with my friend. Did I have a wasted trip...No not at all. I had a chance to spend time with some great people that I consider family and I got to see the city that I love. So I guess another road trip is coming but not anytime soon. Believe it or not ...this trip wore me out! I was so tired. I see now I can seriously only do a few things and then I have to rest. I am grateful to find that out now. I am looking forward to another trip but not just yet. I have a few procedures this coming week that I will let you know about and how it went. Stay prayerful.

Good News...Good News!!

Hey people! It has been a minute since I got on. Man, where do I start?? Well, for starters, the weather cleared up in Austin and man did I go crazy!! I tried to go everywhere imaginable. I went to HEB and Walmart all in the same day....ooohhhhweee. By the time I got home, I was so exhausted. LOL. I just aint ready to do it like I use to yet. And that is really okay with me believe me. I went to another doctor's appointment. He told me that everything was great. My numbers where up and I was still in remission with this disease. I am in a session called maintenance. Maintenance is just when they are killing cells that might pop up. The chemo is for the ones who are being stubborn. I don't take half as many pills anymore. When I was in the hospital I think I was taking at least 10 pills a day....now I am down to 5. I know that seems like a lot but coming from 10 it is good. I have been getting a lot of support from friends and family and that means the world to me. All those out there..you know who you are. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. When something happens that puts you down for awhile, it really tests who your true friends are. I hope I am a living example of a true friend to those who know me because there is nothing like one. Nothing...