Two More Weeks....

I have two more weeks to go and I am taking it one day at a time.  God has been so good to me.  I talk to people around me in the infusion center where the chemo is given and they tell me about the side affects they have and I sometimes feel a little bad to share my recovery with them because I have not had any of the side affects that chemo usually tries to give people except hair loss and even that is growing back now.  I shouldn't feel bad...I should be shouting it from the roof tops.  God is Good and when you put him first as the leader of your soul, you cant go wrong.  His spirit wont let you.  God continue to bless me, I am not ashamed of the blessings you have bestowed on me. God you are so sweet.  His word says, "Test me and see."  He will not let you down.

I Am Not Alone.....

Just the thought of it makes me wanna cry.  I know that he has always been there and will be here for the rest of my life. God is my everything!  I have to admit something though.....I have been wanting a mate, a partner in life a lot lately but God keeps reminding me that those special times and moments of loneliness are for him.  Flesh wants someone to touch, to cry with, to hold me but God always whispers in my ear...That space in your heart is for me to fill, no one else.  So, my prayer now is SHOW ME YOUR FACE LORD....WRAP YOUR ARMS AROUND ME LORD!  I love him so much.  Every time I pray that prayer he shows up.  RIGHT ON TIME!  I am not alone.....EVER!!!!

Keeping My Eye On the Prize....

Keeping my eye on the prize is sometimes hard to do or should I say easy to forget.  I just had a moment this week that made my freak out.  My little one ended up getting a bad cough and a fever from playing in the pool last weekend. Now, that sounds simple enough right? Well, I went into panic mode.  I thought about my health and what I couldn't let happen to me and I started buying all kinds of medicine for him.  I started making phone calls to family and friends to try and keep him for me.  Then suddenly I just said to myself, I have to take him to the hospital.  So, here we both are in the hospital with our masks on and sitting in the waiting room.  The doctor finally called us to the back.  He checked my son and then he looked at me and asked why was I wearing a mask?  I told him my situation and he said...Oh, that is nothing you need to worry about.  He is fine.  Just give him this medicine twice a day for the cough and these antibiotics if you like for any infections.  Then he told me in a quiet Doctor voice.....a fever isn't serious enough for what you have been through....if your son had chicken pox then I would worry.  After he said that, I said to myself, God did not carry me this far to let me go....I KNOW SO!!!  KEEP YOUR EYE ON THE PRIZE MONALISA!

Trucking right a long....

Hello all!  I am updating you on the second week of the five week chemo session I am going through.  I decided to allow each day to take its on course.  Sort of like I did the first five weeks.  It seems to go better and faster that way.  I went to Dallas this weekend and basically confirmed in my spirit that that is where I need to be.  My little one was with us and he had so much fun.  I just have to continue to take my time and don't get to excited and anxious.  God's timing is the BEST timing.  Some folks that know me can pretty much guess how this is going to be a situation that will be won by Me allowing God to do what he does best....EVERYTHING!!!

Grateful....

I am so grateful for all what I have and all what I have been through.  That takes growth to admit that part of it.  I have 3 handsome boys and I don't have any Daddy Drama!!!  Can I get an AMEN??  I saw my middle one graduate and I hear from my oldest on a regular basis.  My little one, well he is with me now and I hear from him ALL THE TIME!! LOL!  Today was my first day being back on the chemo trail.  I have 5 weeks every day to go.  I am not rushing this process.  I am going to treat the second session just like the first.  Wake up in the morning with a voice of praise and eat a huge breakfast.  After that, I lay up for about 2 hours and then I am done.  Piece of Cake...when allow GOD to drive the car, fly the plane, ignite the engine.....Speak to your HEART!  Peace BE STILL!! 

Finally...Two down, One More TO GO!!

Friday, my middle son Elijah graduated with Honors!!  Elijah you are going to be a God fearing Man and I am so proud to be your MOM.  Man, I am so blessed to have 3 great children.  I have one more to go.  The little one is going to do great things too!!  I am not just saying that because he is my baby but I see the sparkle in his eyes when he learns something new.  What a blessing!  Great job Elijah and I love you so much for who you are and what God is going to do in your life.  Keep him first and the rest will come with ease.  GOD is SO GOOD! 

I Aint Running Nothing....

Got back from the doctor and he told me some things that I am so grateful for.  He told me that it would be best if I waited to move after the Chemo treatments.  That would be around September.  The fleshly part of me was like....NO!....the spiritual side of me was like YES!!  I would benefit from being totally clear of the IV chemo sessions if I waited.  No worries!!  Thank GOD for being the master of my plans and not me.  I don't want to put myself in any kind of danger.  Thank GOD that everything goes by him first and then trickles down to me. I Ain't Running Nothing and I am glad because I AM NOTHING without him!!

Here We Go.....

Okay, today I have a Dr. Appointment and I am too excited.  I know you are thinking....why is she so excited? Well, today I get to ask my doctor about the next chemo session.  I get to know how long and what days.  I also get to ask him for referrals.  Yep, you guessed it...referrals for doctors in Dallas.  I am setting up to make the move.  I am going to spend the month of June setting up shop and trying to get everything together.  I have the little one too this summer, so I am juggling all this at once.  Don't be alarmed...its all going to be in God's timing. When and if, he tells me to rest... I will, but when he tells me to pick up my mat and walk....I WILL!!!