Ready....Set.....Let's Go

Okay, first I want to just say Happy Birthday to my first born.  The one and only Kirk Cash. There is no one like you.  I praise God that he touched my Grandmother's heart to name you.  I praise God that he touched me to be your mother.  You have been and will be a blessing to me as long as I live.  I am so excited about 2012 it is just amazing.  Just to look back on this year and the prior year....he has brought me from a might long way.  I am so grateful that he decided to give me another chance.  I am grateful that he chose me to be an instrument to bring him glory.  I pray that I continue to touch the lives of his people all around the world.  Blessed by the name of the Lord.

We judge ourselves by one of the world’s four standards that don’t matter:


Appearance. How do I look? This mentality says that the more beautiful you are, the more important and more valuable you are.

Affluence. If I own a lot, then I must be worth a lot.

Achievement. Do you base your value on your awards, notoriety, and promotions?

Approval. How many people like me? How popular am I?

The problem with this value system is that it’s not stable. Beauty fades with age; possessions wear out; someone else will surpassed your successes; and not everyone will like you.

Studies show that you tend to base your self-esteem on what you think the most important person in our life thinks about you. So I recommend you make Jesus Christ the most important person in your life because he will always tell you the truth.

Jesus Is THE REASON FOR THE SEASON.

Something That Inspired Me ......Purpose Driven

“As she stood behind Jesus at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.” Luke 7:38 (NIV)

"You don't have to clean up your act before you can worship God. Just worship him and he'll clean up your act. You don't repent and confess in order to earn forgiveness. You change your ways because you've been forgiven."

There are some powerful lessons about worship and about the transformation that happens in the life of a worshiper in Luke 7. The sinful woman in this story exhibited four traits we need to take note of:

1. She worshiped boldly. This woman took a risk coming to the Pharisee’s house. She could have been thrown out or stoned, but she came boldly. She marched right into the house, into the dining room, into Jesus’ presence. Why would she do that? She was looking for forgiveness. She was looking for hope and acceptance. She was looking for some kind of change in her life. She was not there just to pay homage to some holy guy.
2. She worshiped humbly. She wept in Jesus’ presence, wetting his feet with her tears. Then, in her deep sorrow, she got down on her knees, showing her submission to God, and dried his feet with her hair.
3. She worshiped honestly. Many biblical scholars believe the sinful woman must have been a prostitute because she brought an expensive jar of perfume with her. This jar of perfume had significance – it represented her life; it represented her background; it was one of the tools of the trade. When she came to Jesus with that jar and poured it on his feet, it was her confession. She was honestly telling Jesus who she was.
4. She worshiped extravagantly. She showed Jesus extravagant worship by using a jar of perfume that probably cost her an entire year’s wages. And she didn’t just dab on a couple of drops. Luke 7:38 says she poured the perfume on his feet. Why? This was her opportunity to come clean, to meet God, worship him and be transformed. It was her chance to start over.

You don’t have to clean up your act before you can worship God. Worship him and he’ll clean up your act. You don’t repent and confess in order to earn forgiveness. You change your ways because you’ve been forgiven.
Romans 12 says that we offer ourselves to the Lord in worship so that he can transform us. It’s the worship that comes first. That’s what we see in this woman’s life.

It's Almost HERE!!!

Yep, Christmas is almost here and I am so excited.  Not only is it my favorite holiday of the year, it is the best holy day next to Resurrection Sunday.  I love the day he was born and the day he rose!!  My family will be visiting me in Dallas for the first time since I've been here.  I have been living in Dallas for a year now, so that's a long time.  I am too excited.  I am preparing now..putting the decorations up and getting the sleeping arrangements ready....WOW!!  I want to thank you for all your support on this journey and it is always great to express your feeling in some form or fashion.  This blog has really given my that chance to express, share, encourage, and VENT!!...lol  Once again THANK YOU SO MUCH!! BY THE WAY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Hitting The Home Stretch...

Hello Friends, we are in the last month of 2012. Can you believe it? This year I can say by a long shot that it was better than 2010 and even better than 2011. I have grown so much in this year it goes beyond words.  I have grown as a person, as a woman, as a christian, as a mother, and as a friend.  You know we throw that word around so carelessly but when you really take an honest to God look at yourself are you a TRUE FRIEND? We really need to look at that word closely if we want to use it for other people and if we want to use it for ourselves.  So, getting back to the original conversation about this year, I have looked at myself with a magnifying glass and not everything looked good.  The things that didnt it took time to accept it and then get God to make changes.  We cant do it on our own.  I tried and it never worked.  The things that looked good looked really great when the pieces started coming together for my true purspose in life.  God takes us through things....no I should say 'allows' us to go through things to help us grow and mature and thats alrite with me.  It took me a long time to be 'alright' with it but now I see the ultimate goal.....its not about ME its about HIM.  Praise His Holy Name!!

Thanksgiving Day....

Hello my fellow bloggers! Just getting back from a trip to Cameron and a trip to Austin all in one day. We had so much fun on the way home to see my mom, baby sister and baby brother.  We laughed the whole time we were in Camerson and we laughed some more when we were in Austin.  I think if camera crews were to ever sneak in one day on my family, we would win the $100,000 prize hands down.  My family is H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S!!! We talked, laughed, and prayed together. We even did some testimony time.  My mom even went down the line telling us how proud she was of us and how she respects us so much in different ways.  She shared with us strengths that she admires about us as an individual then in as a group.  Can you believe it? The woman that made so many sacrafices for us was telling us how she admires us.  It was diffinelty a tear jerker, I tell you.  I just really praise God for a God fearing family that believes in prayer. We know that God will follow through with his promises....we just have to make sure we follow through with ours.  Praise God for FAMILY!!

Change Is GONE COME...

Hello Friends!!! Everything changes in this world but GOD.  God remains the same. Everything changes but GOD! Change....that is a word that some of us are afraid of and some take it head on.  Me...well, I seem to do both.  I am afraid but yet I take it head on.  I seem to be making changes earlier than expected.  You know you seem to always have plans but God has THE PLAN. So, I have learned to say YES LORD in spite of whether I understand it or if I like it or not.  God knows whats best.  He sees the begining and the end while I just see the right now.  Lord, you are so good to me.  I know you know what's best for me.  Thank you for everything inspite of what the outcome. Happy Thanksgiving to you all.  Just decided to drop just a few lines for now but I will talk to you again soon.

Going To The Next Level..

Ok...Hello my fellow bloggers.  I am in amazement right now.  I cant believe that this year is almost over.  I am sitting here thinking, "its the middle of November already?"  Well, the new year is approaching and I dont know about you but I start to think about what have I done to make a difference in this world? What have a done to make a difference in someone's life POSITIVELY? What do I plan to do better for the next year?  You know stuff like that.  Well, I hope I have made a difference in someone's life by writing and creating this blog of HOPE.  If you dont mind, can you comment and let me know? I would love to know how God has blessed you through the trials and tribulations of my life.  I would also love to here how my triumphs has helped you as well.  I am putting this out there because I plan on doing some big things in 2012 to try and help my sisters and brothers with strength and hope.  May God continue to bless you and your families!!

Feeling Free and Starting Over At 40!

I am feeling free and looking good at the rip ole age of 40!!  Hello my fellow bloggers!! Yep, you guessed it, I just recently turned the Big 40!  My birthday was October 16th.  I had a great time in Austin celebrating with some close friends that I hadnt seen in a long while.  I have been in such a blessed state of mind.  Thanking God for another birthday and letting me try this thing over and this time doing it right.  I am in the place where he wants me right now and what makes it even sweeter, he is taking me higher and higher as I go.  God is doing big things and he continues to show his face in my errors and my triumphs.  You know when the song says God is sweeter than any honey comb or when the bible said he sticks closer than any brother, mother, sister, or father.  I could go on and on I tell you.  He has been so good to me...and just cant tell it all.  My children are blessed and I am honored to be their mother.  Thank God for them and their love for HIM!  Praise his HOLY NAME!!

Here We GO AGAIN!!!

Yep..You guessed it. I am in need of prayer.  I am not to proud to beg.  Please pray for me.  The enemy is busy and he is trying to postpone some things that I feel suppose to be happening.  Well, you know what, come to think about it.  It just might not be time to launch it yet.  Yep CureQuest Foundation is once again on hold.  I thought it was full speed ahead on the site and everything.  Then all of the sudden the company that is helping me with it ended up getting a hacker to hack into their system causing some serious turmoil. But nevertheless, I am not going to trip or stress about it.  God is in control of everything including my CureQuest.  So just let me dance instead....Praise HIM!!

Long Time No See....or Hear!

Hello my fellow bloggers.  First, let me apologize for it being a month since I have been talking to you.  Absence makes the heart grow founder...right? Well, lets not delay on catching you up with my life.  I have been attending Friendship West Baptist Church here in Dallas and I love it.  I have been taking these classes for spiritual growth.  The classes you take are from an institute called HTBI (Howard Thurman Bible Institute). You can even get a certificate in Theology or Family studies that counts toward a seminary school.  That means I could become ordained if I wanted to continue.  I am just so excited about the classes because I can see the growth in me.  The things that would have set off bells and whistles, I now sort it out...I have even been able to talk it out.  Now, I'm still a work in progress but I am striving for the mark of a higher calling in Christ Jesus.  Okay and what else....oh yes, I still go to The Harvest and it is growing with leaps and bounds.  We are really benefiting from the classes because it is teaching us to stretch what we know and spread the news with the knowledge that God is giving us. I went to the doctor and he found a bunch of fibroid so many that it has made my uterus enlarged.  He stated that this is when they recommend surgery..you know what that means hysterectomy!!! I was wanting one anyway because of the heavy menstrual cycles so we are planning to have one in November.  I actually have to meet with my oncologist first in October to get the okay. So here we go.....God is able and he is Good anyhow!!

Ride Or Die...Friends For Life

I had some close friends..some dear friends come up and visit and Oh was I blessed.  These are true friends.  Friends you can count on regardless the storm. I can talk to true friends and let them know when you have a problem and when you are weak and can't go on.  I just truly love these people. They are a couple that has been through the ups and downs of marriage and they are not afraid to share so you can be helped.  This couple has shown me that no matter what they love GOD number ONE and that means they can make it.  True..everything is a choice and they chose to stick it out.  What an example for me.  I love the realness of them.  I can just go on and on but I just wanted this post to be dedicated to them.  My Friends to the end.  Love you guys.

I Am Still Trippin

I am still trippin.  I have the opportunity to spread the word of God thru this blog, facebook, and speaking at the Harvest.  What a blessing! I have been blessed with a healed body and a great family. Now I have a great working opportunity to increase the blessing thru CureQuest.  The new name for F.A.C.E.S. I just got the logo done by a close friend of mine and it is AWESOME!  CureQuest will have the same focus but different objectives to get there.  FACES was a support group to help women of color surviving blood cancer well, CureQuest will be a foundation to raise money for the cure of blood cancers such as Leukemia.  I am not only wanting and needing to help women of color, I am wanting and needing to help men, boys, girls, and young adults suffering from these diseases.  I have set out in my mind to be the next foundation to raise billions of dollars to support the cure of cancer.  Pray for the success of CureQuest and my strength in the Lord to accomplish such a task.  Thanks and Amen!

Looking Back....

I was looking through an old journal of mine and found some "Love Letters".  Yep, I was writing love letters to Jesus.  I would sit up in my bed before I went to sleep and write God some love letters.  I read them and was taken back by a few.  I sometimes would write about how happy I was with whatever was going on with me and then some of them was very disturbing.  Disturbing in the fact of me just crying out to the Lord asking him to please forgive the sins that I had committed and that I am really trying to do the right thing but keep falling short.  It just all reminds me of Paul.  His scriptures he wrote about trying to do good but evil is always present.  How he now has no more condemnation. He is free to live in Christ.  Christ has forgiven his sins and will forgive his sins daily.  I think that is so important to know.  I was trying to do it right all by myself and failed.  I cant do anything without Christ.  And even when I fall short, he is there to pick me up and dust me off.  Does that mean that I wont be punished..no, that means that you have a just and loving God so, even during the punishment phase...HE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU!!  That is why I think God is so loving and caring it is incredible. Dont ever think you have to do it on your own.  He is there for us even in our worse state.  Dont be like me trying to do it all by yourself.  It leaves you sad and depressed.  Lift your head up and pray to the Man who is the one who can save you....GOD! Be blessed. 

Put Your Dukes UP!!!

Okay people, you think you only have to fight people that dont believe in what you believe? Think again.  You also have to fight people who do believe what you believe.  Now dont get the word fight out of context.  I am simply meaning...you have to get on your knees and pray.  That is our best and only defense.  Let God fight your battles.  He can do it better than you, believe me.  God deals with the heart.  I have read it and heard it but now I know it.  God deals with the heart of man.  "Out of the heart the mouth speaks." So, what are YOU TALKING ABOUT??  If you arent uplifting, you are tearing down.  If you arent talking about good things, you are talking about bad things.  Its that simple.  I am choosing this day and believe me, it is a day to day process but I am choosing to watch and listen to what I say.  Words are powerful. God built this earth on a word.  He made man with just his word.  There is power in your words.  So if you aint talkn bout nothing...dont talk to me.  Be blessed and not stressed.

Did You Miss ME?!?

Hello my fellow bloggers.  Boy it has been awhile.  I apologize for the delay.  I have no computer at home now it has been raided by viruses.  I had an HP for years.  Now, I think its time to just get a MAC. But nether here nor there....I am here on a computer so lets get started.  The last time I talked with you I was going to speak at the HARVEST.  It was a TRUE BLESSING! But of course you know, I new level...a new devil.  I have been under attack spiritually but the but the storm is over now.  I am blessed to come out of it with my joy.  The enemy thought that he could attack my character.  Yes, he was trying to accuse me of things that where outside of who I am.  Then, he tried to get me tempted with things thought would under any other circumstance...make me lose it.  But, good news is, its over.  I have just a few things to share now with you.  You can not believe the lie of the enemy.  You have to know who you are in Christ.  You have to know who GOD says you are.  Once you got that down, there is nothing anyone can say or do to change it.  God says that I am the apple of his eye.  I am more than an conqueror.  I am beautiful and wonderfully made.  I am his child.  Case closed.....point blank.

Nothing But The Blood...

Hello my good people.  Well folks tomorrow is the day of my first sermon.  I am so excited to share God's word to his people.  I am knowing now what my place is..where I stand...who I "REALLY"am in Christ.  A lot of times we think we know who we are until God shows us the real us in the mirror.  We are filthy rags without the blood of Jesus.  I am perfect in HIM.  I am beautiful and wonderfully made in him.  You might not like the way I talk.  You might not like the way I walk.  You might not like the way I look but in Christ I am made in God's image.  How awesome is THAT? I just want to give him all of me.  I want him to use me up.  I want him to use me just where I am and take me higher.  I love the fact that he takes us higher.  I am no body without him but I am everything with him.  Praise His Holy Name!

IT'S SO FUNNY...

..when God takes you through things that you ask for.  I know that doesn't make sense to you right now, but let me explain.  I pray for things like help me to do this or that and then before I know it, I am smack dab in the middle of exactly for what I prayed for.  Last month my focus was OBEDIENCE and I'm telling you....if everything came at me last month that could have caused me to go the other way.  You see, I prayed to be more obedient and God allowed me to be in circumstances that would make me be humble and obey his will and his word.  WOW!! So, this month I choose to focus on JOY and here we go.  It is only the 6th of the month and so far I have experienced things that could definitely steal ALL MY JOY if I allowed it.  But this is what I know. By the end of the month, I always end up stronger in that discipline that I choose to focus on.  Yep, you guessed it...so by tomorrow I will be looking for JOY in everything...even when it causes me pain.  I CHOOSE JOY this MONTH.  Praise God on HIGH!!  See I'M SMILING ALREADY!

Wow!! Cant Believe Its Been That Long!!!

I have been off this blog for too long.  Wow! Now I have to catch you up with what has been going on. Well, since I spoke to you last, I told you that I fixed up the place to make me feel more like home.  It feels great! Then, I told you about my son making some life changing decisions. He has decided to go to college here in Texas instead of out of state.  That makes me feel good because I can visit more often than not.  Lastly, I told you that I was asked to speak at the Harvest. I got the date...the last Sunday in April.  Yeah! I get to speak EASTER MONTH.  The month Jesus rose from the DEAD!! Wow! That fits perfectly.  God saw fit to give me a second chance on life, so I feel that HE has risen me from the dead as well! All the old heart's wants and desires died when I saw God in a TRUE LIGHT. I can honestly say that I have never felt so close to God than I do right now in my life. I can now see my journey with Christ.  I just want him to be pleased with me when its all said and done.  I want him to look at me and say, "Well done my Good and Faithful Servant, well done."

Feeling Blessed and Highly Favored!!

I know I havent been writing in some time now but I have so much to tell you.  First of all, I just recently got blessed with the opportunity to put my house in order. I went shopping for a few things and ended up with a lot of things.  My loft feels more like a home now.  I put my personality in it.  I love it! Secondly, I had the opportunity to speak to one of my older boys on the phone and he has made some life changing decisions, and those decisions were made without me.  I am so blessed to know that God is in the drivers seat in not only my life but my son's life as well.  And lastly, I have the opportunity to praise and worship not only at church but in my building.  The Harvest is a ministry that I support and have been supporting for over a year now, and they have asked me to speak.  I am so excited.  My first sermon! The service is held every 4th Sunday and the service starts at 11:30am.  I will keep you updated on the date that I speak.  I just ask that the Lord take over and use me on this day as well as everyday.  HE is doing some big things and I just pray that I stay humble and obedient to HIM.  Praise his Holy Name!

MARCH MADNESS!!!

Its March 1st and I am feeling springy already.  I am looking forward to beautiful flowers, sundresses, and picnics.  Thank you Lord for allowing me to see this day! I thank him so much for another chance at life....another chance to get it RIGHT!  I havent really worked on F.A.C.E.S the support group I started last year for women of color who are surviving cancer.  I am thinking about another name because when I moved to Dallas someone had the name FACES for their business.  I know what you are thinking and I did check the proper channels to make sure I was the only one with this name.  The thing is his name isnt really FACES its FACE and the state doesnt allow a name that "SOUNDS" like another name.  Texas is weird but I am going forward knowing that GOD is in control and if he wants me to change the name, he will give me another one.  I am not stressing over a name.  I just have to move forward.  Praise GOD for Change!

Its Harvest Time!!

Its Harvest TIME!! Spring time is right around the corner and the harvest is ripe for the picking.  Tell somebody how much you love JESUS and ask them do they know him.  Offer yourselves up for the cause. I was asked where I see myself in 5 years and I had to honestly pause for a minute. I couldn't see anything past last year more less five but a person has to have goals, right? Well, here it is...I see myself following Christ in a major way and seeking out lost souls and help bring them to Christ.  My ministry, I see, strengthening on a day to day basis.  I see my calling on my life being administered in a mighty way whether that's by word of mouth or witnessing all over the world.  The internet is a powerful thing.  So, I plan on telling my story and putting it on video like a documentary to be coupled up with my ministry to let people know how GOD is good and he is real.  He can do major things in your life.  He can use set backs and backwards thinking to benefit you in a major way. Your 4 days doesn't have to turn into 40 years if you submit...repent...and pray.  Ask God to heal your land...and he will.  Praise God for his mercy and his grace.....Get READY PEOPLE ITS HARVEST TIME!!

He loves me....He loves me not.....HE LOVES ME!!!

I know...I know...Valentines Day is coming up and a lot of people celebrate the one they love on this day with roses or flowers or some sort of gesture. Well, believe it or not, GOD shows us he loves us everyday. He shows us by putting up with our stupidity and with our faults on a day to day basis.  TRUE love looks beyond your faults.  TRUE love is patient and kind.  But I am sure you know all these things,  right? The Bible tells us all the great things that LOVE IS. I am almost positive that you can fill in the blanks about what it's not.  I just praise GOD that he is my VALENTINE and I am HIS....ALL THE TIME. 24/7....365 days a year.  When is the last time you told GOD you love HIM?  Well, just in case its been a minute...LETS TELL HIM right NOW....GOD, I LOVE YOU!! Your word says that if you love me, you will obey me.  So, Lord give me the strength, the courage, and the will to obey you everyday.  Hey GOD.....HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

Speak Lord....

This is a powerful thing. This is something that now I have learned to get ready for. I prayed this prayer and had to get out a pen and paper. When God speaks...he speaks.  I just thank him for all his wisdom, knowledge, and understanding. He has used me in so many ways and now he is showing me other areas.  This new territory is exciting and he has to remind me that he chose ME to do it. That doesn't mean he didn't choose anyone else, it just means that I AM INCLUDED!! That brings comfort, peace, and joy to my heart.  Like the song says, "I want to be in that NUMBER!" Well, I know that I am.  HE has been waiting on submission and a total surrender on my part and I am seeing exactly what that means. Everyday....everyday....and I do mean everyday, it is a total surrender and submission to him.  Denying what I think is right or what I think is best.  A total rest and belief in HIM.  Man, it never fails...every time I follow through and do it....it is so much peace and joy in it! Its CRAZY!! It seems simple but doesn't it all.  The word of God is really simple.  "If you Love me...OBEY ME!" Simple right? The flesh makes us think that this is a hard task but we have to know that we cant do it alone....that's the answer.  That is the key to the test.  The answers are written on the wall.  YOU CANT DO IT BY YOURSELF!!!  Note to self: Let GO and LET GOD!!!

Self Discipline and Self Control..

God you are so good to me. God you have given me the discipline of UNDERSTANDING this month and I thank you for that.  Because your word says, before you get anything make sure you get an understanding.(paraphrase). I am starting to understand why most of the things...good and bad has happened to me.  You are really trying to protect ME from ME.  I can self destruct on my own...without any help from the enemy or anyone else for that matter.  I know the difference between right and wrong.  I just chose to do wrong.  I am a big girl now and I have to make big girl decisions.  The thing is.... big girl decisions make the little girl in me scared, angry, pout, wine, kick and scream.  I have to grow up and show God that I can eat meat and I am no longer needing the bottle of milk.  He is preparing me for some things that my dreams cant even imagine.  God wants to do some big things in my life if I can just control that LITTLE GIRL inside of me.  The little girl is the FLESH.  When I can get that under control, the world is mine.  There is nothing that can stand in my way.  No person, place, or thing.  You know why because ...if GOD be for you, he is more than the WORLD against you.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Its a new year and God has given me another chance to do it right.  I thank HIM and I praise HIM for giving me grace and mercy.  This year is going to be a GREAT ONE! I have to make some changes to the support group I started last year called F.A.C.E.S. This is just a minor set back because I know that this is going to be the year for F.A.C.E.S.  I plan on doing big things in the name of Jesus!  I want to be a better woman, a better mother, a better witness, and a better wife in 2011.  God's plan for me is for me and I am so okay with that.  No more what I want to do...its what God wants me to do.  Who and what that changes in my universe is fine with me, because what God wants for me is the BEST for me.  I WANT THE BEST!!!  I like the way that sounds.  I think that will be my new motto for the year.....