Gaining Weight because of STEROIDS???

Okay, I was noticing some swelling around the ankles and fingers but didn't really think anything.  Then I started to notice the thighs and my over sized head.  Yes, I said my head.  I was swelling.  It looked like I was gaining water weight everywhere.  I suddenly couldn't put on my jeans and the shoes and rings were too tight.  I said to myself what is going on?? Is it the chemo or what??  So at the next chemo session I asked to speak with my doctor.  He told me "Oh yes Mona Lisa, we have been giving you 10 mil. of steroids everyday before the chemo so you wouldn't get nausea.  I told my doctor I never suffered from nausea from chemo injections.  He said really??  Well then, lets take you off of it then.  Thank Goodness!!  So yes, now I am off the steroids and looking like Serena Williams with a bald head.  Praise God for the Body he made for me.  Cause I am still FINE!!  LOL!!

Focus...Focus....Focus!!!!

At times when we think we are going down the right street, the signs seem to be saying all the right things, and the wind is blowing through your hair or less of it in my case.  You are really thinking you are doing the right thing...well this weekend was one of those moments when all my right intentions ended up being something that took me back a few steps. People it doesn't pay to get off track.  Whether that be emotionally, physically, or spiritually. And the great thing about it is...you will know because your strength is gone, you are tired, and you are worn out.  That means you weren't working in God's Strength ...you were working in your own strength.  So, Lord thank you for putting me back on track.  I Love You for that.  Okay now....Focus!!

Readjustments....

Adjustments happen all the time.  You have to be flexible, you have to go with the flow, you have to change according to the "End Times"...well sometimes you have to adjust the adjustments.  This last week I was going through the Chemo sessions like a champ and all of the sudden this weekend hit me like a tone of bricks.  I had a heartburn or gas sent from Satan himself from the pits of HELL.  I couldn't go to sleep but in 2 hour increments.  I was so tired and sore it didn't make any sense.  Elijah my 17 year old's prom was Saturday night so I went by his house to take pictures of him and his date.  I was feeling good at that time then out of the blue....I ate a sandwich that had almost everything on it but the kitchen sink....... hit the floor of my stomach and left me moaning and groaning all night Saturday and almost all day Sunday.  This weekend I had to seriously pray my way through.  Thank God his mercy and grace is renewed everyday.

Enlightened..

It has been a while since I have been able to write on the computer.  The computer ended up getting a virus and I have been locked out for about a week.  You know it is so funny how life happens.  You can get a virus or some type of struggle in your life that just might derail you for a minute but you always have to get back on the saddle.  This week I have been going through my consolidation stage of this stage of the process.  I have been blessed and highly favored by God to be not even weak and tired afterward. God makes sure you have everything you need for you to do what you have to do.  Thank God for that!!

More Tests....

Today I had to go to the hospital to take some tests.  The tests were for Blood, Heart, and Lungs.  They were called....lab work, MUGA SCAN, and EKG.  It tired me out a little.  Maybe because I didnt have a chance to eat or maybe because it was early in the morning.  Whatever it was it got me a little tired.  I decided a long time ago to trust GOD no matter what tests I take.  I love and trust God for who he is... not just for what he does.  God has delivered me out of too many situations, this being one of them.  I am just following orders to confirm the MIRACLE!!!.

Sometimes you just have to wait....

Sometimes you just have to wait on God.  You make plans for the future hoping that you will be able to complete them but the plans have to match up with God.  God says in his word that HE knows the plans for your life.  He is the author of your fate.  The minister of your soul.  My plans are to do what God has me to do. I set out to do some things last year on my own and now since I am surrendering to him its just becoming lighter for me.  I dont have to stress about whether its going to work because it is...God said it.  I will be completely successful in him.  My final word is not man's..... it's God's.

Always Stay On Your Toes..

Always stay on your toes.  You never know when someone is going to need you.  Someone might need to be uplifted.  Someone might need to be encouraged.  Someone might just need a shoulder to cry on.  Always be ready.  The enemy stays ready.  He loves to catch us slippin.  God tells us to be ready in season and out of season.  We are made to praise and serve.  Dont forget what you are put on this earth to do.  God did...so we should!  You Fill In THE BLANKS!!

A Day of Fun and Play..

This was a day of sun and fun.  Me and my LiL one went to at least 3 different parks today.  We were riding in the wind.  Where ever the tide flowed, we were there.  We looked to the left saw a park and pulled in. We left there and rode a little bit.  Looked to the right and saw a park and pulled in.  Boy, did we have fun.  Today was a good day.  God is everywhere and in everything.  The wind in the trees, the sun in the sky, the chuckle in your laugh.  Try and spend some time just admiring what is around you.  It is a beautiful feeling.

A NEW DAY..

Today was a day of healing and rebirth.  Today was my son's birthday.  Menes Osiris Daniels.  He was killed crossing a street in Round Rock Tx.  He was 6 years old. Menes was the type of child that was very inquisitive and smart.  He loved to play outside with his friends and family.  This particular day he wanted to impress his cousins and show them where a special friend lived.  A friend that use to play with him and his older brother Elijah.  The friend wasnt home so Menes and his cousins started to come back home.  The street was usually not busy at all.  The street was crossed many times before. But this particular time the cousins crossed and left Menes on the other side.  Menes tried to catch up by crossing and didnt see a truck that was coming up.  The truck struck Menes and he was knocked unconscious.  He later died in the helicopter on the way to the hospital.  I dont doubt God or Question him about the decisions he makes in my life.  I just praise God for the time I spent with my son.  God knows all and He is Wonderful.  Inspite of what we think or feel.  God Loves Us and that is good enough for me. I love you Menes Osiris Daniels....and mommy will see you when I get to Heaven.

Today Is A New Day

Today is a new day...To begin the rest of your life.  I choose to forgive and never forget.  Forgive the people who have wronged me and never forget where God has brought me.  We have a choice to heal or to hurt.  I choose to heal.  Did you know that your body could be suffering because you are holding some type of resentment for someone?  That blew me away.  Diseases in our body can be prevented just by being happy and joyful instead of sad and miserable.  I choose to be happy and joyful.  That is how it suppose to be..right??  I have a few major tests coming up in April that will be looking at a few things that will determine whether my body is strong enough to take the next stage of treatment.  When I go in there I want to surprise everyone with how strong I am simply because I decided to LET GO and LET GOD!!!

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

I went to Dallas this weekend and had a blessed time in the Lord.  I actually drove for the first time longer than a few miles here and there like I do in Austin.  But towards the end of my trip, I almost allowed an incident to strip my joy for the rest of the day.  A friend reminded me that I must not let the devil in and steal that joy from me.  Satan comes to steal, kill, and destroy us.  God is so good and he blesses us on a constant basis.  It's like sometimes we feel that it suppose to be automatic.  But when something happens contrary to what we planned we focus on it all day if it's bad enough.  I cant allow myself to get in that mode of making minor things major and major things minor.  God is blessing me everyday and that is something to focus on above all else.  God thank you for allowing me to be human but knowing that I am striving to be a better person in you.

Heart Break turns into Heart Felt Praise

Well, I must say, going thru this thing alone can get pretty tough sometimes but I often have to remind myself that I am not alone.  I know God is always with me.  It is just the whole idea about sharing thoughts and emotions with a person you see.  But when you really think about it, God can also be that in your life if you allow him.  God is our everything.  He is our all in all.  He is a father to the fatherless, a mother to the motherless, a brother or a sister.  He can always be your lover.  Just let him in.  So, I chose to let him in to be my Everything....My friend, my lover, my father, my everything!!  Thank you God for being here for me in my time of weakness.  When I am weak..you are strong.

More Great News....

Right now I am on top of the world.  My lil one is here visiting from Dallas for a week at my apartment.  We are spending time together after 3 months of not seeing him.  Boy, this feels good.  I love caring for him.  It gets my mind off other things and back to things that matter.  My middle son came to see me over the weekend. That was fun too!!  He really makes me laugh.  My oldest communicates with me through yahoo messenger.  He is in Iraq.  So, I am blessed beyond measure.  I love 3 loving and caring boys and they love their mother unconditionally and I love them with that same love.  A mother and son bond.....what can I say??  It's unbreakable!!!

A Trip Back Home

I left today to go visit my mom back home in Cameron Tx. What a trip! We left around 11:00am and made it there just in time to almost miss her. My mom is a hard worker. My mom is a cook at a nursing home and she loves her job. My mom would rather work than stay at home any day. She has always been that way. We asked her, what is she going to do when she retires??...She said, relax and kick my feet up. Yea right! We will see how long that lasts. My mom is 60 years of age and still loving and beautiful from the inside out. I love her so much. She is just now deciding to tell her daughter the truth about the birds and the bees....go figure.

A day of doubt...

I allowed myself to start doubting in one area that God has already confirmed to me. God told me that he wants the best for me. I know that is something easily said until you want something and it aint what God wants for you. It is hard to allow total control of your life. To totally trust God in ALL THINGS. We say it but do we mean ALL of it?? Well, I said it.. and found myself still holding on to one little part. Well, you know who won that battle...yep you guessed it... God. Just remember this small prayer because if you really mean it...God will move faster than what you think. Prayer: God I don't want anything that you don't want me to have. Stand back and watch God move after that...

Feeling Good and Looking

Hello People, it is wonderful to feel great and look great. If nobody tells you this, you must tell yourself. You have to believe that you are doing great and the body will follow. I have heard of this theory but now I truly believe it. Your mind is a powerful instrument. On top of belief, you have to know and respect that God controls everything. Whether its good or better. I don't believe that anything is bad because God didn't make anything BAD. The enemy(Satan) wants us to think that God doesn't love us but that is a lie. God loves us. Even when we dig ditches for ourselves, he still gives us a rope for safety. "It all works together for good, for those who love God." Keep this in front of your mind...no matter what.

My First Road Trip

Hello people! Well what can I say. I finally had my first road trip since I've been out of the hospital. You guys know where I wanted to go right?? Yep, Dallas! The goal was to see my youngest son and try to get some info from my exhusband. Also, check out a place where I would love to live. I have been eyeing this place for at least 6 months. Lastly, I wanted to see a really good friend of mine. Now these were the reasons for the trip...did they happen? No, I ended up doing things that weren't on the menu. I didn't get to meet up with the exhusband, didn't get to see my son, didn't get to check the place out where I planned to move, and didn't get to spend enough time with my friend. Did I have a wasted trip...No not at all. I had a chance to spend time with some great people that I consider family and I got to see the city that I love. So I guess another road trip is coming but not anytime soon. Believe it or not ...this trip wore me out! I was so tired. I see now I can seriously only do a few things and then I have to rest. I am grateful to find that out now. I am looking forward to another trip but not just yet. I have a few procedures this coming week that I will let you know about and how it went. Stay prayerful.

Good News...Good News!!

Hey people! It has been a minute since I got on. Man, where do I start?? Well, for starters, the weather cleared up in Austin and man did I go crazy!! I tried to go everywhere imaginable. I went to HEB and Walmart all in the same day....ooohhhhweee. By the time I got home, I was so exhausted. LOL. I just aint ready to do it like I use to yet. And that is really okay with me believe me. I went to another doctor's appointment. He told me that everything was great. My numbers where up and I was still in remission with this disease. I am in a session called maintenance. Maintenance is just when they are killing cells that might pop up. The chemo is for the ones who are being stubborn. I don't take half as many pills anymore. When I was in the hospital I think I was taking at least 10 pills a day....now I am down to 5. I know that seems like a lot but coming from 10 it is good. I have been getting a lot of support from friends and family and that means the world to me. All those out there..you know who you are. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. When something happens that puts you down for awhile, it really tests who your true friends are. I hope I am a living example of a true friend to those who know me because there is nothing like one. Nothing...

Pretty much locked in...

This week I am pretty much locked in. It is snowing in Austin. This week suppose to be real cold and I am not even gonna chance it. My doctor said that I don't have to worry but I don't want to worry either...so I will be at home. I am starting to think about what I am going to do for these 6 or so months I will be out of work. I started my own business last year and it was just starting to take off. I am an Image Consultant. My company is called Unique Image. I am a style architect. I would build your image based on your personality. I would do closet audits, go on shopping expeditions, and color coordinate your colors based on your personality and likes. It is something I enjoy tremendously. So now I am trying to figure out...do I want to start this thing back up or do I just let it go. Maybe I should just change my focus on the business as a whole. Instead of focusing on clothing and shopping, I should focus on the name of my business YOUR UNIQUE IMAGE. What does that mean....well we are made in the unique image of GOD. A lot of people don't know that or maybe don't understand it. Maybe just maybe this could be my new platform....just a thought.

Getting Back in the Swing of things...

Oh boy, okay today I went to church after about a month and a half and boy did it feel great! Anyone that knows me would know exactly how I feel about that. I was telling myself to keep it together as the choir began to sing but the lead singer starts with a song that broke me down. Yep you guessed it....NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT by Marvin Sapp. People when I tell you it took everything in me not to TRY and run around the church. Boy the words of the song was already special to me but after you go thru something like this the words just go to another level for you. OMG! Church was fantastic!! The word went forth and it was in line with what I am doing with you today. It was about helping people. Go outside the church and see who needs some help, a word of encourage, some food, some clothing, something. We are here to serve. Whatever you are blessed with and especially if you are blessed with abundance, you have an obligation to give. He has blessed you to bless others. God gave his only son for us, so why cant we give someone a piece of bread?? Oh yea, I did promise a pic of my new hair cut so here it goes. I am getting use to the fact of hair still shedding but this is a start. Maybe next time, a little lower please Charles...:))