Speak Lord....

This is a powerful thing. This is something that now I have learned to get ready for. I prayed this prayer and had to get out a pen and paper. When God speaks...he speaks.  I just thank him for all his wisdom, knowledge, and understanding. He has used me in so many ways and now he is showing me other areas.  This new territory is exciting and he has to remind me that he chose ME to do it. That doesn't mean he didn't choose anyone else, it just means that I AM INCLUDED!! That brings comfort, peace, and joy to my heart.  Like the song says, "I want to be in that NUMBER!" Well, I know that I am.  HE has been waiting on submission and a total surrender on my part and I am seeing exactly what that means. Everyday....everyday....and I do mean everyday, it is a total surrender and submission to him.  Denying what I think is right or what I think is best.  A total rest and belief in HIM.  Man, it never fails...every time I follow through and do it....it is so much peace and joy in it! Its CRAZY!! It seems simple but doesn't it all.  The word of God is really simple.  "If you Love me...OBEY ME!" Simple right? The flesh makes us think that this is a hard task but we have to know that we cant do it alone....that's the answer.  That is the key to the test.  The answers are written on the wall.  YOU CANT DO IT BY YOURSELF!!!  Note to self: Let GO and LET GOD!!!

Self Discipline and Self Control..

God you are so good to me. God you have given me the discipline of UNDERSTANDING this month and I thank you for that.  Because your word says, before you get anything make sure you get an understanding.(paraphrase). I am starting to understand why most of the things...good and bad has happened to me.  You are really trying to protect ME from ME.  I can self destruct on my own...without any help from the enemy or anyone else for that matter.  I know the difference between right and wrong.  I just chose to do wrong.  I am a big girl now and I have to make big girl decisions.  The thing is.... big girl decisions make the little girl in me scared, angry, pout, wine, kick and scream.  I have to grow up and show God that I can eat meat and I am no longer needing the bottle of milk.  He is preparing me for some things that my dreams cant even imagine.  God wants to do some big things in my life if I can just control that LITTLE GIRL inside of me.  The little girl is the FLESH.  When I can get that under control, the world is mine.  There is nothing that can stand in my way.  No person, place, or thing.  You know why because ...if GOD be for you, he is more than the WORLD against you.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Its a new year and God has given me another chance to do it right.  I thank HIM and I praise HIM for giving me grace and mercy.  This year is going to be a GREAT ONE! I have to make some changes to the support group I started last year called F.A.C.E.S. This is just a minor set back because I know that this is going to be the year for F.A.C.E.S.  I plan on doing big things in the name of Jesus!  I want to be a better woman, a better mother, a better witness, and a better wife in 2011.  God's plan for me is for me and I am so okay with that.  No more what I want to do...its what God wants me to do.  Who and what that changes in my universe is fine with me, because what God wants for me is the BEST for me.  I WANT THE BEST!!!  I like the way that sounds.  I think that will be my new motto for the year.....